Back in Business

Hello loyal blog readers!

I'd like to take a moment to welcome myself back to the blogging world, seeing how it's been over a month since I myself updated.

First I need to say thank you to all of you for your caring, prayers, gifts, and cards. This has been 7 long frustrating months hopefully culminating in the last month, and I wouldn't have made it through without you. Well maybe I would have, but I wouldn't be on speaking terms with God probably. As I was in the ER the Wednesday before last, I was in terrible pain and the procedures they were doing on me were making it worse and I remember just crying and crying and asking why God wouldn't help me. But that wasn't true, wasn't fair. Just spoken out of pain. But God was, has, and is helping me-- through all of you. Thank you so much for being the lights of God in my life when I couldn't see it elsewhere.

This last hospitalization wasn't so bad. I had nice nurses (which truly makes all the difference). I was on some good painkillers (yay morphine and demorol!), which is always great. I left the hospital weaker than when I went in, but overall alright. I have an ear infection, which is a pain, but definitely not worse than anything else I've experienced. Healing from my surgery is going well. My incision is almost nearly healed. I don't think it's been mentioned that I have a feeding tube now. At night for 15 hours I am fed through a feeding pump, which ends up being about 1800 calories a day. Then during the day I eat what I can to supplement that. My doctor wants me to gain 30 pounds by March on this plan. I really hope I can. I gained some weight in the hospital over the past week, so I'm up to 100 pounds. Pretty good since I was in the 80s last week.

I don't want to bore you with details, so I'll wrap up. I love and appreciate you all more than you know.