Emotional Immodesty Revisited

I got a lot of feedback on my little "Emotional Immodesty" blog that I wrote last month. Not so much through comments, but through conversations that it sparked with my friends. One particular girlfriend and I were talking about it, and she posed the question (more or less), "If men have pornography to satisfy their visual sexual temptations, then what would the equivalent be for women?" And I just blurted out, "Soap Operas". She laughed, but I stand by the gist of the response.

To quickly review, men are generally more sexually stimulated visually, while women more emotionally. So as my friend was saying, if men turn to porn, what to women turn to? I think we turn to fantasy.

Romance novels and soap operas come to mind first. Although this may surprise you, I have watched Days of our Lives for over ten years. Well, I've been on and off. Much more off than on for the past several years. So I feel I'm qualified to speak on this subject. :) Traditionally, soap operas are about stories. About drama and difficult decisions and passion. (I say "traditionally" because in recent years the shows have become much more sexualized, I think). So women watch these shows in droves, right? Why? Because we love the emotion. We like to wonder what we would do in those situation of being caught between two lovers, and maybe honestly hoping it happens to us one day.

And if you ladies are thinking, "Oh but I don't watch that trash!", I think the same concept can apply to romantic movies in general. Or how about those "medical dramas" which are really soaps in disguise?

But the question is, what do these types of emotionally manipulative shows and other media teach women about love? I believe that it basically does the same damage that pornography has done to men. It teaches girls that love is driven by passion and excitement, and rarely if ever found in the mundane dealings of day to day. It develops and fosters fantasy that will never live up to reality.

And then the poor boys? They're left trying to measure up to some perverted image of what it is to be a good man. Much like women left in the wake of a pornography and sex saturated culture.

I preach to myself as much or more than anyone else. I think if women receive the brunt of chastisement about dressing properly, then boys receive the brunt when it comes to indulging their fantasies. Feminine propriety isn't just about dressing appropriately, it's about guarding your heart. Not just from boys practicing emotional immodesty, but from indulging yourself in fantasies of what you wish love would look like.

Love is different than you think, it's never in a song or on a TV screen.
-- Derek Webb, Caedmon's Call

Twister!

Well, it wasn't enough for The Onion to make fun of my boy, Grant. Now the Daily Show has taken aim at a legend among Oklahoma meteorologists, Gary England. You can read his Wiki bio there, but long story short he's a very impressive figure in meteorology, and he still forecasts on one of the local stations. For the record, he's the one I watched a few months ago when I spent the evening in my bathtub. :) Anyway, I saw the clip of Jon Stewart making fun of this commercial and started laughing so hard I choked.



I hadn't seen that commercial yet, and at first couldn't believe it was real. But oh, it is. I know weather isn't something to joke about in Oklahoma, but come on. :)

Then when I wikipedia-ed Gary England, I saw this Gary England drinking game and again laughed so hard I couldn't breathe. Maybe you have to have lived in tornado alley to appreciate it, and maybe even in Oklahoma, but it'd a good way to pass the storm. :) Considering the weather we've had here lately, I think I'm going to go dust off my storm season shot glasses... err, I mean "weather preparedness kit" and get ready for the next party... err, I mean storm. :)

Things I'm Trying to Keep Alive

It's been almost a month since Penny Lane moved in, and many people have been asking me how she's doing. She's doing great! She was rescued from the shelter and is living a secure life of comfort, ease, and attention. The real question how is the cat owner doing? :) I'm fine. Overall she's a good cat-- very affectionate. She follows me from room to room, sits beside me while I wash the dishes or whatever, and is very cuddly. But remember how I said that when I walked into the shelter and she's the one who jumped up and started meowing at me? Well, indeed, be careful what you want, because she is a crier. I've had to train her with the use of a spray bottle to not sit outside my door and cry all night. I think she's a lot healthier now, too. Her coat is shinier and smoother. She's gained some weight. We're doing fine. :) Here are some cute pictures:

This is how Penny spends most of her day.

As gatinhas! Okay, that joke only makes sense in Portuguese. :)

Looking innocent. Don't buy it, folks. :)

A very accurate picture of her coloring.

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Speaking of things I'm trying to keep alive, my garden is also okay. More than half of the plants have survived, which I take to be a success considering it is my first attempt at a flower bed.

As you can see, the south side is doing very well--



The north side didn't fare so well, only one coleus and the impatient survived-



But my greatest success is one spirited weed that has thrived in the middle-

Welcome Heretic Hunters!

Lately one of the most popular search terms to reach my blog has been "Campbellite Heresy." Did you realize that my blog is the second search result on google for that term? :) (In case you're not a hard-core or long-time sojoblog reader, then let me direct you to this post).

What could be the number one hit, you wonder? Pastor O'Neal's Study Helps. In case you don't want to go look at it, let me give you some of the highlights. (Really you should look at Pastor O'Neal's website for some truly... umm... spectacular web design. :) )

Because I know my readership and their constant quest for spiritual and academic nourishment, I want to provide you with the resources of Pastor O'Neal, with titles including (but not limited to!):

• The Biblical Way to Hate Queers
• Hatred, the Missing Element of Discipleship
• Why Christmas is Full of the Devil
• The Holy Bible Vs. the Campbellite Heretic
• Bad Music is Killing Our Fundamental Churches
• The Biblical Use of Sarcasm and Name-Calling
• Dating is for Dummies; Courtship is for Christians
• Blunders and Boo-Boos of Baptist Briders
• The Shocking Truth About Deacons
• Hair - The Long And Short Of It
• Tips For Training Tots And Toddlers
• Why Your Wife and Daughter Should Not Wear Pants
• Why I Am Not a Southern Baptist
and last but not least--

• Why I Love the Local Church

Pastor O'Neal even gives descriptions of each book (available for only $2 with a minimum order of $10), so I suggest you go and get yourself some religion.

And in case you're wonder who might authorize Pastor O'Neal to preach as boldly as he does, well, he proudly displays his badge of being in the "Fundamental Top 500."

I'm so glad to know high quality of company I keep among Campbellite Heretic blogs. I wonder what new hits I'll get from this post... :)

But really, if you did end up here honestly seeking evidence to fight heretics, let me point you to some helpful reading material.

Happy Father's Day

I'd like to wish a happy father's day to all the fathers, grandfathers, uncles, caregivers, and any other men who serve as protectors, providers, and role models. Although our culture doesn't outrightly "approve" of the absentee or distant father, it certainly perpetuates the disturbing idea that it is quasi-normal. Thank you for standing against the culture and standing for what's right. We need more men like you.



And especially to my own dad-- I'm still this happy to be your daughter. :)

Communal Chastity

The past couple of week I've been re-reading Lauren Winner's, "Real Sex: The Naked Truth about Chastity". It's a very good book although it is a tad cerebral, but I think it's justified considering the vulgarity with which our culture treats sexual topics. One of the final chapters is on the importance of Communities of Chastity (chastity here being defined as the discipline of keeping sex in appropriate spiritual contexts, hence every Christian practices chastity). In this chapter she discusses celibate communities, but the principles are very appropriate and applicable for non-celibate Christian communities as well.

For monks and nuns, the practice of celibacy begins with a vow. The men and women of religious orders come before their community and profess celibacy to God. Their community helps sustain their sisters and brothers in their vow. Somehow the True Love Waits pledge cards signed in adolescence only dimly approximate this. Perhaps the cards seem flabby because they are so often misunderstood as an individual pledge of the will, and not as a promise made by and with the entire Body of God...

The essential insight of celibate members of religious orders is that transformation-- including but not limited to, the disciplining of sexual desires-- happens in a community. Without the presence and commitment of the community, it would be impossible for people to change; it would seem naive to expect people to be different from their parents, or different from what their culture tells them to be. So like most spiritual disciplines, chastity is better practiced in community than alone. It is not enough for a Christian to decide to be chase; the church must be a community that works toward chastity, a community whose structures and rhythms make chastity seem plausible and attainable.

Here, we can take our cue not only from monasteries, but also from twelve-step groups; Alcoholics Anonymous creates a place where radical change of behavior makes sense because it creates a community. It sustains relationships that are organized around the vision of changed lives. The church, too, needs to be a community where chaste behavior makes sense, where people commit to a shared vision of lives transformed by the gospel, where transformation is expected.

To me, this embodied the concept I've been trying to develop in describing the blessing of my friends. I still cannot fathom how grateful I am to have been graced with people throughout my life who have served as these communities of Christian accountability for me. When I was living in environments where there was little Christian (or moral) influence, I would call my friends just to reinforce our beliefs and our shared goal towards holiness.

Communal support and accountability are critical in walking the Christian path, whether in the area of chastity, workplace ethics, physical wellness, or relationship health. I am eternally grateful for the blessing of community and true friends I have had who've helped me keep the vision of our common goal throughout my life.

Sabbath

I have read in Plato and Cicero sayings that are very wise and very beautiful; but I have never read in either of them: 'Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden.'
--Augustine of Hippo

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
--Matthew 11:28-29

Oh love that will not let me go, I rest my weary soul in Thee.
I give Thee back the life I owe that in Thine ocean depths its flow may richer, fuller be.
--George Matheson

The world is a wearisome place, and I constantly rejoice in a Savior and family where I am free to be at rest. In His presence and in the presence of our brothers and sisters, we can rest from the judgment of the world, the need to prove our worth, and every other burden the world places on us. Rest for your souls... Amen. Come, Lord Jesus.

Is Chemistry where it's at?

A couple of months ago I wrote about eHarmony, which turned out to be a pretty popular subject. I received more hits on my site from the word eHarmony than I have from any other word! :) Apparently I came across pretty harsh against poor old eHarm, as I have taken to calling it in my head. Several people have since spoken to me about the success stories they know of and I never meant to say no good can come from eHarm, I just don't like their manipulative side.

But lately I've been thinking about internet dating again because of those devestatingly clever ads that are being run from a company called Chemistry.com. They claim to be the home for all people unloved by eHarm. You can see the funny ads here.

So I went to the site to see what it was all about. On the front page is a link to the following article. It it long, but if you have time I think it's an interesting read. The original text will be in italics and my comments will be in bold. Enjoy!

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Is Marriage Dead, by Dr. Helen Fisher


When asked why all of her marriages failed, anthropologist Margaret Mead replied, "I beg your pardon, I have had three marriages and NONE of them was a failure." Really? Then what exactly did your vows say?

Why do Americans believe that one life long marriage is the only real road to happiness and success? Granted, I view marriage from a Christian perspective, one that views a marital union as a covenant with God and one's spouse, and reflective of the love and comment Christ shares with us. My bad.

Marriage has changed more in the last 50 years than in the past 5,000. Yet many cling to traditions that evolved among our farming ancestors.

When our forebears began to settle permanently to the land, they began to need to cement their social ties. What better way than to wed your daughter with my son? One married someone with the right social, economic and political connections. Virginity at marriage, strictly arranged marriages, till death do us part, the belief that women are less sexual than men, and many other traditional beliefs about women, men and marriage arose.

The Greek, Roman, Chinese and early Christian philosophers and theologians regarded ones love of kin, God and civil duty as far more important than love for a spouse. Strong marital commitments were not regarded as the foundation stone of society until the 20th century. I can see where she got that out of the "early Christian philosophers", but it's clearly a skewed and incomplete view of Christian theology.

Today love, communication and companionship have become central to a partnership. We are shedding many of our past agrarian beliefs and returning to patterns of sex, love and marriage that our ancestors practiced a million years ago traditions that are highly compatible with our ancient human spirit. Interesting.

Forward to the past: this trend began with the Industrial Revolution. As men and women began to leave the farm for city work, they no longer needed to marry to maintain time honored social ties. And by 1800 more and more had begun to choose their spouses for themselves, live together before wedding, and divorce and remarry to make happier partnerships. Yes, premarital sex and cohabitation, divorce, and remarriage has made so many people I know so darn happy.

This Marriage Revolution continues. Today some 91% of American women and 86% of American men would not marry someone unless they were in love with him or her, even if this person had every trait they were looking for in a spouse. People in 37 other cultures agree; they want the chemistry of passionate romantic love. To me, this paragraph is the thesis of what is wrong with marriage is America today.

Divorce is also becoming common. The American divorce rate is currently 43%, much like that of several other Western countries. But people are changing their attitude about marital separation, seeing it less as failure and more as the first step toward finding true happiness. Seriously, I cannot think of a single person I know or have seen who is truly happy to have gotten a divorce. Even if it is a terrible situation of abuse or infidelity, I don't know anyone who is happy to be divorced. I'm sure they exist, but I don't know them.

Romantic love within marriage, divorce, remarriage: these trends are not new. For millions of years in ancient Africa both men and women commuted to work to hunt or gather fruits and vegetables. The double income family was the rule. The sexes were economic, social and sexual equals. And men and women married and remarried whom they chose. As women re-enter the paid labor force in droves, we are reassuming these ancient life ways.

Today, for example, most men and women experiment with sex and love long before they wed. Many live together before they tie the knot. Some have children first, then marry. And many have two or three spouses across their lives. All are traditions from prehistory. Yes, prehistory was known as a glorious time of free love, abounding happiness and women's liberation.

In fact, we no longer live in a traditional marriage culture. Older women are marrying younger men. Inter-racial marriages have increased dramatically. Homosexuals can now form legal bonds in several states. Older people are remarrying rather than settling with their children. Living together, commuter marriages, visiting marriages, polyamorous marriages, childless marriages, singlehood, bearing children out of wedlock, registered domestic partners, divorce, remarriage, step families: In short, we can no longer expect most people to spend most of their lives in one traditional style marriage. I will concede to everything being our new reality until she gets to the colon. Maybe I can't say that for "most people", mostly because of crappy philosophies like this woman's running rampant.

But are we happy? The New York Times recently reported that 51% of American women are currently living without a spouse. Is this reason to panic? On the contrary, it may be reason to celebrate. I'm part of that statistic, so I can't say it's a bad thing, but reason to celebrate? I dunno.

Take the widows. In past centuries most women died young; today they are enjoying their senior years. What's wrong with that? Others are still young. Unchained from the narrow routines of farm life, they can finally postpone an early marriage to explore their opportunities in a wider world. What's wrong with that? Last are those who have divorced. Finally, these women have the economic means to leave bad marriages to make good ones. Really? Is that why re-marriages after divorce has statistically higher divorce rates than first marriages?

In fact, demographers and historians say that women in the western world are experiencing happier marriages today than at any time in history probably for two reasons. Foremost, many women (and men) can afford to walk out of bad marriages to make better ones. AGH! Second, with the current emphasis on companionship within marriage, people today expect more from their partnerships and are working harder on their relationships than at any time in history. Now there's an idea!

Despite these obvious, largely beneficial, and largely worldwide changes, Americans cling to their outmoded beliefs about traditional marriage. I wonder if they know what they espouse?

In historical times, most husbands had the sole responsibility for the family's economic worth, while most wives were uneducated and confined to kitchen, church and nursery. Virginity at marriage was required; divorce was almost impossible; and a double standard for adultery prevailed; even rape within marriage was excused. Yes, those are bad things.

I think it is time to practice the democracy we preach. Prince Charming. happily ever after. till death do us part. The belief that there is only one true love for each of us. These fantastical beliefs may be as damaging as the fantasy of the perfect female body. Most of us cant live up. So lets embrace what we see around us men and women following their own paths in their primordial drive to love. Till death do us part is a fantastical belief? Primordial drive to love?!?!

And love is a drive. Deep in the human brain lie three circuits that evolved to foster reproduction: the sex drive, romantic love, and attachment to a partner. Each is associated with different brain chemicals and each interacts with the others. This, for example, is why casual sex is often not casual. Any sort of sexual stimulation activates dopamine systems in the brain and can trigger feelings of romantic love. And with orgasm comes a flood of oxytocin and vasopressin, chemicals the can create deep feelings of attachment to a partner. These brain systems will never be extinguished. So maybe romantic love, life long partnership, and sex drive should all be linked, huh?

And marriage is not dead. In fact, United Nations data on 97 societies indicates that over 90% of men and women in most societies wed by age 45. But it is metamorphosing into many supple, varied patterns. Most important is the rise of the 21st century marriage form, what sociologists call the symmetrical, companionate or peer marriage: marriage between equals.
Okay, marriage between equals I can handle.

Its time to enjoy our freedom to be ourselves. Yes, our sinful, selfish, fallen selves.

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I gave eHarmony a hard time, but at least eHarm is programmed more or less on the basis of a Christian marriage system. Apparently Chemistry is about finding your primordial love drive.

Normalcy

Hello Blogland,

I realize it's been a while since I've written. For me, at least. 5 days between postings would be probably a 1000% increase in frequency for some of my friends, but for me it's pretty bad. :) I've just felt thoroughly uninspired to write, which is too bad because I really have a lot I could write about.

The weekend before last I went to Texas once more to visit my favorite Canadianette, Pamela. I met Pamela in Brazil last year. She lived in Itu for 2 years, so we understand each other and our experiences there in a way few can. She was down from the northernlands to take a short course at ACU, and I figured this may be as geographically close as we are for a while, so I took the chance to visit. And it was wonderful! She wrote on her own blog about the excitement of my flat tire, so you can read the story and see the pictures there. Pamela's going to Brazil this week and I am inexpressibly jealous. I have been incredibly blessed by her since we met!


What else is going on... the cat and I are doing fine. She has taken control of our relationship, with me answering to her beck and meows. But I still like her. :)


I passed the teacher certification test. Believe it on not, on the general academic test I actually got a perfect score on the math area and didn't pass the writing. Go fig. Now I'm looking for a teaching job.

This is a strange time of the year, because I feel like I should be getting ready to go to Brazil. It's even harder to see my friends getting ready to go to Brazil, to the very churches I worked with. I never wrote too much on the blog about deciding not to go back. The primary reason I didn't move to Brazil is because I was so weary of uprooting and moving. I just wanted a nice, "normal" life. I've never been a rolling stone in my heart or personality, so all the moving I've done in the past 3 years has really worn me down. But I miss Brazil. So much I can hardly stand it sometimes. I miss my friends, the church, the lifestyle, the food, the language... and I don't know if I made the right decision. I don't really doubt my decision; I just wish there were some way to make it all work. But right now there's not, and I am okay with that and happy where I am and what I'm doing. When I decided not to go, I was afraid I would become bored quickly and regret my decision, but honestly I haven't. I almost feel guilty for that. Almost, not quite. Bloom where you're planted, right? And I happen to really like where I'm planted right now.

Well, that's a lot of what's going on with me. Just living my "normal" life. :) What's going on with you?

We Stay Fly...

1. What's the last mistake you made?
That's a hard one... hmm... it'd probably be circa 2002... :) Ha, no really, today I leaned too far back in my chair at work. :-/

2. Is the sun shining?
Nope. Cloudy day.

3. Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?
Oh yeah. I've got mad balloon skillz. :)

4. Do you like text messaging?
No. I'm not a fast text message typer. What's the point?

5. Are you having a good/bad hair day?
It was rainy this morning, so not so good. The good thing is that since I have started wearing my hair curly, it doesn't matter so much.

6. What was your last purchase?
Gas? Ouch.

7. Are you wearing any make-up right now?
Yes, if I go out of the house I am very very likely at least wearing concealer and powder.

8. What are your plans for later?
Later? Well brace yourself. I'm going to wash some dishes.

9. Is your cell phone fully charged?
I think so. More or less.

10. Is there any drama within your life?
Yep. But it's more the exciting kind than the bad kind.

11. What is a song they need to stop playing on the radio?
"Breakfast at Tiffany's"

12. Are you content with life right now?
I think so.

13. Does anyone like you?
I hope so!

16. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
Probably so, but I really don't remember. That's not as shady as it sounds. :)

17. Would you ever smile at a stranger?
Of course! But in a modest way. ;)

18. Ever done a random act of kindness?
Yep.

19. Do your toe nails have nail polish on them?
Yes, a seashell pink color.

20. When's the last time you shaved your legs?
Two days ago?

21. Last curse word you said was?
Hahaha... I don't know that I want to share what it was, but it was in reference to question 1. :)

22. Ever been in the middle of a love triangle?
Hahahahaha..... unintentionally and innocently, yes. Crazy people.

23. Are your lips chapped?
No. I don't have problems with that, generally.

24. Do you own an ipod?
No! :(

25. Did you have a dream last night?
I think it had something to do with a cat owner.

26. Are you mad at anyone?
I'm not super pleased with the whole world, but there's no one I am wishing ill upon.

27. Who is the randomest person you know?
I could say so many people! Let me think... Chie Igarashi? XD

28. Have you made an igloo before?
No, I'm from Texas.

29. Done any spring cleaning lately?
Yes! Cleaning is my way to relax in my time off at home.

30 . Anything bothering you?
Not really.

31. What are you looking forward to?
THREE DAY WEEKEND! TWO BBQs!

32. Did you wish for anything last night on 11:11?
No... I'm not in 5th grade anymore, thanks. :)

33. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
No no no.

34. Do you wish you were someone else?
Not really.

35. What jewelry are you wearing?
I'm wearing my little silver hoop earrings, the cross necklace I always wear, and a ring. Not a RING, just a normal ring. :)

36. Ate any exotic food lately?
One of my Vietnamese co-workers brought things to make spring rolls with and we made them and ate them.

38. Are you easily amused?
Oh yes.

39. Can you lick your elbow?
No. And yes, I just tried. :)

40. Do you know this song "we stay fly no lie you know this"?
I do. Please don't judge me. :)

In my ears and in my eyes

I'd like to announce the newest addition to my household, Penny Lane.


Never to be outdone by my sister, I decided to jump on the pet bandwagon myself. :) Penny's a two year old who I adopted from the animal shelter. Her name was "Gracie", but I might like to name a human child Grace one day, so I had to switch names. She's coppery colored and you know I love the Beatles, so Penny Lane it is. :) Apparently I am a hero for not just wanting a kitten, the way the people at the animal shelter talked. I went last week just to look, and when I walked in all the cats were sleeping, except Penny who jumped up and started meowing at me. I think we'll be happy together. :)

In an effort to not become a crazy cat person, I have laid forth some rules. Penny is not my child, I am not her mommy. Nor is she my baby. I will not use this language with her. She may be called kitty, sweetie, or any other pet name, if you will. I'm not sure what other limits I will put on myself. I guess we'll see as we go along.

The Importance of Being Modest

Dressing modestly has become an issue to me in the past months. I'm not tempted to dress suggestively in order to garner some sort of male attention, but other reasons have caused this to be an issue. For one, I lived in Brazil for six months last year. My day-to-day outfit was a spaghetti-strapped tank top and capris, and I was dressed quite modestly in comparison to most. However, I don't feel comfortable at all wearing that here without some sort of cover up (and probably rightfully so). Another reason for this is that I know that V-necks look better on me because of my face and shoulder shape. Crew necks just look bad, and when I think I look bad, I feel bad. Conversely, when I think I look good, I feel good. So I dress in ways that make me feel confident.

Appropriately and thankfully, I've heard many a sermon on the importance of dressing modestly in my life, so I have a conscience for such issues. I know it puts out a message I don't want to communicate, and also I do feel a sense of responsibility for not being a stumbling block to others. Modesty is important.

Follow me on this; I believe they're related.

Recently I was talking to a good girl friend of mine about a relationship she is in with this guy. It's been going on for years and has been a destructive force in her life, but still she seems to find herself back in the same situation over and over again. And the key to her falling back into the pattern again and again is the small but significant emotional connections he evokes (provokes is perhaps more appropriate?) with her. I think this is the same thing as "leading someone on" or I've also seen it called "emotional defrauding".

It got me to thinking though, because I've seen this same thing happen with so many of my girl friends and also in my own life, and in talking to my friend I put the term "emotional immodesty" on it. It's not done intentionally all of the time and certainly not limited to men, but it does happen, and is quite comparable to the struggle women have with dressing modestly.

I don't think it's an over-generalization to say that men are visually stimulated more than women and women are emotionally stimulated more than men, and it's hard for each gender to fully comprehend the effect one has on the other in these areas*.

This might be the difference; I honestly don't know because I am not a man and have thus not had a male's upbringing in a Christian community. Girls and women are fairly often reminded of their responsibility to dress modestly. Are men warned of the temptation they can present to women emotionally? I honestly don't know, so I'm asking.

This just struck me recently. If anyone has any cheers, jeers, or other thoughts on this I didn't mention, please add your comments. I'm really interested in seeing what others think.


*Of course there are men and women who use these temptations purposefully as weapons against others or for their own gain, which is a sin and really quite hateful.

Hometown Reunions

Like I said, last weekend was wild. I've thought a lot about how I could effectively communicate the fullness of it via blog, but it'd be impossible and boring to 98% of my readership. I grew up in the wonderful city of Stephenville, Texas from ages 5-16. It was a good, small-town Texas upbringing which I adored. Stephenville is the epitome of small town Texas in many ways-- lots of farmers, cows, cowboys, trucks, and high school football reigned. I've waxed poetic on the blog many times before about the idea of home, so I'll spare you this one. :) I'll just say that being with my childhood best friends again, most of whom I hadn't seen in about 10 years, was so amazing. For one, I feel like they know me because they know where I'm from. They know parts of my life that I really haven't talked about in those 10 years since I've been gone. We laughed over funny old memories and caught up on all the juicy gossip of everyone we've ever known (and boy was some of it juicy!).

The reason for the reunion was that my childhood best friend was getting married, much like happened about this time last year. It was mainly a reunion for the three of us pictured below, and for three kids who grew up as best friends, our lives couldn't have turned out much more different. You know that I ended up being the "adventurous" world traveler and rolling stone, Leighann ended up more or less staying in Stephenville, and Marky (he's gone by Marc for more than 10 years, but he'll always be Marky to me) has been living in LA as an actor for 7 years. So this was truly an interesting reunion. :) All in all, it was wild, funny, and one of the most interesting weekends I've ever had. It's good to remember where you came from and those who helped form who you are today. It's like the old Girl Scout song says, "Make new friends, but keep the old; one is silver and the other's gold."


Reason #3249827 why Texas is fantastic-- the wildflowers that bloom along the sides of the highways each spring. AMAZING!

The backdrop of the wedding. Yes, I am so vain. :) It was beautiful, though!

Me and Marky. He's always been a cutie, and I'm pretty sure he's the reason I've always had a thing for the latino men. ;) hahaha....

Leighann and I... we've come a long way together!

Rowdy, my dog-nephew

This weekend was crazy (in a wonderful way). I'm not even sure where to begin to describe everything, so I'm going to start from the end.

I went to T-town for about 24 hours to see my wonderful mommy for Mother's Day. I also got to meet my new dog-nephew, Rowdy. Rowdy is a little puppy dachshund. I think he's 8 weeks old now. My family has never owned a dog, so this is quite a new and fascinating thing for me. Now I'm going to just show a bunch of cute pictures. I love my dog-nephew. :)

TOO CUTE!

Poor boy wears a bow. My sister claims it's a "bow tie". :)


My sister and mom

Awwwwh, too cute! For the record, I definitely don't approve of kissing dogs on the lips. He surprised me! We were trying to pose for a picture!

Prettier than Dirt

I have officially begun my attempts at gardening! It's a meager beginning, but in case I turn out to be the kiss of death for flowers I didn't want to massacre too many. I chose some nice impaciens and coleus. And I got really dirty planting them, so I feel very close to nature. :) I'll keep you updated on their survival!

It's Raining Men, Hallelujah!

I'm probably going to be mocked a little for this, but that's okay; I'm not ashamed. :) I have a little crush on Grant Johnston, a local TV meteorologist. I first took note of him when he signed up to take graduate classes at my dear alma mater. So he's apparently a thinking Christian. I like it! Then I found out he is single. So that's nice. :) But he won my loyal fanship once I started watching and saw him make corny jokes on air. I'm starting to notice that corny jokes are the way to my heart. He makes the erratic Oklahoma weather a more pleasant thing. :)

So yes, I'm a fan. Imagine my surprise when I saw that Grant and the KFOR crew were featured in The Onion!

TV-News Graphics Guy Gives Weatherman On-Air Surprise

For the record, that's not Grant Johnston in the picture. :) But all the names are accurate, apparently! How weird would it be to one day find yourself in The Onion?! Oh my.

I would like to apologize for the outlandishness of the title, but I couldn't think of anything better. I know I have several word-smith readers... can anyone think of anything better? A prize to the best alternative title.

I would also like to apologize to Grant Johnston if he one day reads this, since I have a history of attracting the random people/organizations I write about. :)


UPDATE:

Oh, I love my clever friends. :) If only you would use your powers for good and not evil... with great power comes great responsibility, you know. ;) Hahaha...

Inch by inch, row by row

If you can't tell, one of my favorite hobbies is taking pictures of flowers and trees. Going camping gave me a good chance to do some of that, although not a whole lot was in bloom.

Two peas in a pod... or two buds on a stem... whatever. :)

This one's my favorite.

Also, two nights ago OKC had a humongous storm. I've never slept in a war-zone, but I imagine it was as close as I could get to that experience without being there. I woke up about 3am to the loudest thunder I've heard and lightning so bright it lit up my room like daylight. And it went on until 5am!

I woke up and as I was leaving for work the next morning, I realized that a tree had fallen in my back yard! I don't know if it was hit by lightning or fell from the wind, but either way it came a little too close for comfort to my neighbor's car.

Tiiiiiimbeeeeer!

Is this a rotten tree or is this the site of a lightning strike? Horticulturists, please help me!

This split makes me think it was lightning. Poor little redbud!

This may just look like dirt, but it represents my afternoon of hard work! Since the sun actually made an appearance today, I left work an hour early and got busy making a flower bed. This strip was full of weeds as tall as shrubs and a couple of years worth of dead leaves. But now it's ready to be made something nice and beautiful. :) What should I plant? What's the hardest thing to kill? It's on the east side of the house and gets more shade than sun. ~Gonna make this garden grow... all is takes is a rake and hoe...~ :)

He Wouldn't Give Me Up

This weekend was such a wonderful time of rejuvenation for me as I went camping with a group from church for a little retreat. I'm not going to tell all about it, but I just want to give thanks to God for this much needed time of fellowship and community.

We sang this song this weekend, which I've known and loved for several years. The message is so powerful.

Had it not been the Lord who was on our side
The anger of the enemy would have swallowed us alive
Had it not been the Lord who was on our side.

Had it not been the Lord who was on our side
The waters would have engulfed us, we would have surely died
Had it not been the Lord who was on our side.

Blessed be the Lord who would not give us up
Blessed be the Lord for His unfailing love
The snare is broken and we have escaped
Our help is in the name of the Lord. Blessed be the Lord!

Once in a while God grants me with a clear view of just how far I've come through the past year or two, and it truly brings me to my knees. I love the line-- "Blessed be the Lord who would not give us up." I remember those moments of complete hopelessness when I was sick. I usually describe the type of faith I had at that time as being too weak to let go, and the gift of faith from God pulling (or dragging) me along. This song gives me the image of God holding on to me and fighting for me in those darkest moments, though many other forces were trying to pull me away.

I feel as though I should live each day with an extra sense of gratefulness after what I went through. And I probably do, although it's usually not done consciously most of the time. But I thank God for moments like this weekend where I can look back on those Ebenezer stones in my life and give thanks for what God has done.

Then Samuel took a stone... He named it Ebenezer, saying, "Thus far has the LORD helped us." I Samuel 7:12

Camptreat group, courtesy of Amy Nickerson

Missing the Point

There are specific verses and words used by both sides of the gender justice debate. I think you can pretty well prove anything you want if you pull verses out of their context, liberal or conservative. More than this verse or that verse, what has truly guided my belief in the importance of gender justice is the overall message of Christ.

I think one of the main messages of Christ is one of reconciliation-- the idea of Christ's sacrifice and salvation means that everyone is brought to the same level on the spiritual plane, if that makes sense. I am thinking about I Peter 2 talking about the priesthood of all believers, that we are all part of the royal priesthood, giving us all those gifts that once were restricted. I believe that we as the church all stand before Christ as his bride and he is the bridegroom, making us spiritual equals.

Christ's sacrifice, our baptism, and the incarnation of the Holy Spirit within each believer strips away what we are by birth. By birth we're of a nationality, we're of a family, a culture, a race, a socio-economic status, and a gender. When we are clothed with Christ, our worldly definitions fall away as we become co-heirs with Him. We receive gifts and talents with which we are to glorify God's name and bless the world.

Christ came to destroy barriers to God. I think of the temple curtain ripping as He gave up His spirit. If Christ died to destroy those barriers, then why do we insist on maintaining them? In our pure spiritual intities as we stand before God, does there exist a difference in male and female? I'm not talking about personality, familial roles, etc... just spiritual beings. Is there a difference?

I'm going out of town for the weekend, so I won't be able to respond to (or monitor) comments until Sunday night. In the words of St. Gabriel of Minnesota, "Be holy and be nice."

Talks to Strangers

My friend Misty is an amazing writer. She's witty and hilarious and has had an adoring public through the years, from her writings in the Skinny Voice (anybody actually know what that is?) to the blog she used to have. However, much to her adoring public's dismay, she quit the blog scene a while back. However, it is now resurrected and even better than ever!

It's not often I write an entire entry dedicated to directing traffic to another blog, but I have a couple of good reasons. Firstly, it's great and you should read it. Secondly, I have been remiss in adding her link to my page. Thirdly, her post today was a re-telling of a story I told her about the marathon. I suggest you go over and check it out. She tells the story much better than I could, and I end up being a Chuck Norris-like super hero in the end. :)

There ya go. Talks to Strangers. Go check it out. :)

Misty at her finest